Monday, April 21, 2008

Ch-ch-ch-ch-changes

My life seems to change every day. And the older I get the less I like change. Being keenly aware of this potential for change, it's sometimes tough to just get out of bed in the morning - mostly because the first thing that will be changed is the litter box, and I'd prefer to avoid that for the most part.

Strangely enough, I'm in a holding pattern right now, waiting to turn the next corner...waiting for the next change...and anticipating change is just as difficult for me as dealing with it. I'm looking for a job at a university, and I'm supposed to be finishing my dissertation. (God willing, I'll be done by December graduation.) If I do get a job, I'll be moving. I reeeeaaaally don't like moving. I've done it so frequently, it seems...since 1987 I have lived in 11 different places. You'd think it would be 'old hat' by now. Don't get me wrong, I'm not one of those irresponsible types who just camp out somewhere as long as the owner lets them. I pay my rent and my bills on time. I don't leave a string of IOU's behind. I've always gotten my deposits back. I've never been evicted. The only call from a collection agency I've ever gotten was a mistake. I just moved frequently because of work or school. Anyway, I'm tired of moving and I want to be permanently planted. If I feel the need to see anymore of the country, or the world for that matter, I'll leave from and return to my home instead of being moved there. So, God willing, I'll land somewhere that will love me for the rest of my teaching career and into retirement.

There are a few changes I'm looking forward to, though...buying or building a house of my own, retiring, starting new hobbies, going to a church of my choice instead of being a paid choir section leader somewhere, getting involved in a community, being debt-free, having enough money to join the local Y, and maybe having a child of our own. We'll wait and see what God has planned. Until then, say prayers that I'll not bite my nails down to the nubs. (Maybe once I have that new job, I'll get my acrylic nails back. Yeah, that's another thing I'm looking forward to!)