Wednesday, July 08, 2009

My ACDF Surgery Experience

(Fair warning...long post)

Today is the one week anniversary of having ACDF (Anterior Cervical Diskectomy and Fusion) surgery. I had a herniated disc in my neck in the C5-6 area, thanks to an automobile accident. It was causing some pain in my neck and numbness in my left hand. I now have a small plate thingie screwed into two of my vertebrae, some adult stem-cell material living where my herniated disc used to be, and what I hope will turn out to be a cool scar on the front of my neck.

The surgery itself lasted approximately 1 hour, or so I’m told. I had it done as an outpatient procedure, beginning around 7:30am. I ended up staying in the hospital until approximately 4:00pm, if memory serves. (Please understand that morphine and other pain meds make my recollections of specific details a bit fuzzy.)

Two days before surgery, I had a consultation with my doctor and made all arrangements with the hospital. This included blood tests, urine tests, x-ray, EKG, etc. The following day, I found out that my white blood count was quite elevated. Unfortunately, this could delay my surgery. The medical professionals decided to wait until the following day and allow the anesthesiologist determine whether or not I would be allowed to have the surgery. Thankfully, I was determined to be healthy, even though the elevated white blood count indicated a possible infection somewhere that could potentially compromise my post-op health. To this day, the source of the infection remains unknown.

I woke up from surgery in recovery wearing a relatively small bandage (approx. 6” x 3” of gauze covered by a much larger piece of what felt and looked like very sticky plastic wrap) and a soft collar. I must be sensitive to anesthesia because I remember vomiting once. I was later wheeled into a room where my family was waiting for me. This is where things are really fuzzy. I think I was given morphine in the recovery area, so I was in and out for the next couple of hours. I was also given antibiotics later in the day to help with the potential infection. The next things I remember were trying to talk to my family, eating some ice chips, having a few visitors, and later being given a meal to eat. (FYI, this meal included Salisbury steak, cornbread, red potatoes, turnip greens, milk and applesauce, I think. I tell you the menu now because this will be humorous after the next couple of paragraphs.)

Eating has been the most interesting challenge. For the first couple of days particularly, I was unable to eat “normally”. Swallowing was just downright painful, even with pain meds. Also, I felt like I was going to choke or inhale bits of food after swallowing…like fluids or food was resting on a little shelf above my airway and would be sucked in on the next breath. It was a very panicky time for me. Even swallowing water was difficult – my throat was swollen, and more often than not, all of the water, even when I took smaller amounts, wouldn’t go down with one swallow. I definitely have had to take smaller mouthfuls of food and drink. I also found myself taking large breaths before swallowing, just in case I needed to cough something out that fell into my airway. I have also been using a dessert spoon instead of a regular spoon so that my bite portions are smaller. (I can’t open my mouth as far as I normally do, either.) When I get especially panicky, I stand up, really straight, to eat. I don’t know why exactly, but for some reason I feel more in control should there be a choking problem…like everything is now in a straight line down to my stomach with a lessened chance of choking. (I have no idea why my mind has chosen to fixate on this choking thing.)

My diet this week has been modified to soft, small-particle type foods. For example, my breakfasts usually include a combination of a couple of soft foods like a half of a banana, jell-o, a frozen fruit popsicle, fruit cocktail (preferably peaches), pudding, etc. I also keep a cup of water nearby, just in case. I have also been able to add spaghetti-o’s with meatballs, tomato soup, oatmeal, cheese and macaroni, and mashed potatoes to my menu choices over the past few days. Everything with any substance must be chewed thoroughly, else larger food particles get stuck in my throat. (Unfortunately, I discovered yesterday that I could eat Peanut Butter M&M’s, too!)

I sensed I needed to be careful about what I ate because some foods create more mucus in my throat than others. To me, mucus = additional swallowing, possibly choking. I find myself drinking water more than anything else. Though some of my foods are liquid, or liquid based, like soup and popsicles, water tends to cut the mucus created by other foods best. Things that are milk-based, like ice cream, isn’t so friendly to my throat. While the cold feels good, the mucus that’s left behind isn’t worth it to me. Not everyone has mucus problems after milk products, but for me, it’s just something I get to look forward to. Carbonated beverages don’t feel so great to me. The bubbling is something of a burning sensation, and any resulting burp has been a little painful…it’s a relief, but it hurts. I’m not a real fan of carbonated beverages on a normal day, so maybe that has something to do with it, too.

Now, you need to understand that I’m no svelte model. I’m VERY…‘healthy’. Let’s just say that I weigh more than my 6’ tall husband, and I shop from women’s sizes. So, not being able to eat was a disappointment and a shock. In my mind, considering nothing was cut inside my esophagus, I figured eating would be a whole lot simpler than it has been. Though I don’t know for sure, my guess is that the swelling from the surrounding tissues is hampering normal swallowing. I hoped that this would calm down after a few days, but my guess is that it won’t return to normal until after around 4 weeks, when the swollen tissues are far less inflamed.

Bathing was interesting for the first couple of days. I was told not to get the bandages wet under any circumstances, but I knew I needed to bathe and wash my hair. What ended up working best for me was to take a shower and bathe as much as possible by myself. Then, here’s where I enlisted help. I asked either my mother or my husband to wash my back and my hair (because lifting my arms was difficult). Thankfully, we have one of those shower heads that has a long hose and hangs from a little holder – similar to a sprayer on the side of the sink. I bent over approximately halfway, folded a thick towel up and held it over the front side of my neck, covering my bandages very well, and had my Mom or husband carefully wet my head, wash my hair, and rinse me as quickly as they could. (FYI, my post-op orders said to limit bending and lifting.) This worked very well, in my opinion. As long as we avoided allowing the water to flow over my neck excessively and moved the process along fairly quickly, the towel absorbed any water that did run towards my chin before it got to the bandages.

By the way, ladies, since lifting my arms has been difficult, getting a sports bra that hooks in the front and one of those mu-mu style house coats with the front snaps has been a wonderful decision. I look like heck run over, but I have been completely and utterly comfortable and well-covered for visitors.

Sleeping has probably been one of the toughest things to figure out. I don’t know if I am wanting a different position for comfort each night, or what. I have been sleeping on the couch since the surgery. It allows me to sleep upright much easier, and this is how I feel most comfortable. I have slept in my soft collar every night but one (and I try to keep it on about half the time during the day, just in case). My preferred sleeping position seems to be VERY elevated from the hip up, keeping my neck as straight as possible. This usually involves about 5+ pillows against the arm of the sofa. Normally, I am more of a side sleeper and have a difficult time sleeping on my back. So, sleeping in a recliner is out. I found that if I laid on my back in a recliner or against the elevated pillows, I would either frequently wake up because I was uncomfortable or because I am snoring. I am just following my instincts on sleeping for now, even though sometimes it takes me about an hour to get situated into a comfortable position.

Speaking has been different. The larynx is unable to move as freely because of the swelling, I assume, so higher pitched speaking has been impossible. It’s also been difficult to speak louder. I also seem to walk with my head down a bit if I’m not wearing my soft collar. It feels like my head weighs more than it did before surgery, and my shoulders could use a massage to relax a little. (Of course, the thought of someone pressing on my neck and shoulders at the moment makes me queasy, so I’ll just put that massage on hold for now.)

After removing the outer bandage, I noticed that my incision is covered by a few pieces of surgical tape – the kind with strings in it. I saw no stitches but some clear sticky stuff below the surgical tape, so I am assuming that my incision has been glued shut. This is my first experience with glue (and only my second surgical experience, my first being a tonsillectomy), so I am curious how this will go. I was told that I could remove my outer bandage on the 5th post-op day, but I am not allowed to remove the surgical tape over the glue. This should all be allowed to come off on its own.

I was given a prescription for Tylox 5-500mg capsules, a combination of Tylenol and oxycodone, to take 2 capsules every 6 hours as needed. I never took the maximum amount of pain medication, usually taking only 1 pill every 5-6 hours. Honestly, I never felt like I needed it. My last dose of tylox was the evening of the 3rd or 4th day. Just before bedtime, I sensed that the previous dose had worn off, so I took one to help me sleep that night.

Since stopping my pain meds, there has been discomfort, but it’s certainly nothing that has kept me awake or hampered my abilities in any way. There is still some discomfort swallowing, but it gets a tiny bit better every day. If I can settle into a comfortable sleeping position, I can sleep through the night and usually only wake up once…this has been the case for the past 3 nights. My neck and shoulders hurt, but I think it’s because I’m holding them in a tense position to try to keep my chin/face aligned with the center of my chest to avoid turning my head.

At one point, I wondered if I was “normal” in my recovery. So, I got online to read about the post-op experiences of other people. I found that most of them had procedures that were more involved than mine, for example, they included reparations/fusions including more than one disc/vertebrae and required more hardware. To be honest, these stories didn’t help me at all. In fact, they just scared me. I got the impression that I was reading the “worst case scenarios,” so I quit reading and decided to just pay attention to what my own body was experiencing. I’ve been much calmer since, and I find that I can notice my own healing a whole lot better when I’m only comparing MY current experiences to MY previous experiences. Don’t get me wrong – I think one should be fairly well educated, especially about surgical procedures and expectations. I just think that in this day and age of computer information availability, we can get too much of the wrong information just as easily as we can get the correct and helpful kind. I have decided that as long as I am better today than I was yesterday, I am happy and calm.

The time has passed quickly since the surgery, once I got through those first couple of days. I would definitely recommend that you have help for at least 2 days afterwards. Stock up on soft foods such as those listed above. Don’t try to yell or speak louder – keep the remote with the mute button nearby, along with the phone. And just know that as soon as you swallow something you’re trying your best to eat carefully, that phone is going to ring. J

If you have any questions or if something is unclear, please feel free to write me. I’m a no-surprises kind of person, and if I can help, I surely will.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Tagged Again!

Christie tagged me again, so here are my answers:

Favorite person (outside family)?
Well, it depends on the day, but I'm constantly thinking about my husband, my mother, my father, my best friend Christie, my cousin Melonea and my friends Rosella and Jami.

Favorite Food?
I'd have to say Ward's chili dogs or a bologna sandwich (thick sliced bologna, fresh white bread and mayo). What is it with me and processed meat?!?

Quirks about you?
I think I'm a little OCD. I don't like to use typo shortcuts like "lol" or "c u l8r", so I type everything out properly. I also have this 'evenness' thing...like if I crack one knuckle, I have to try to crack the same one on the opposite hand; or if I clean under one fingernail, I have to do the same one on the other hand - it mostly has to do with my hands for some reason.

How would the person who loves you most describe you in ten words or less?
Goofy, silly, lazy, watches movies and tv too much.

Any regrets in life?
Not recognizing the sacrifices my parents made for me while they were being made.

Favorite Charity?
American Cancer Society, A Better Way Ministries (Moss Point, MS), ASPCA

Favorite Blog recently?
Christie's

Something you can’t get enough of?
Food, attention, rest, money, etc., etc., etc.

Worst job you’ve ever had?
The Williams job in Hendersonville/Nashville...I was bored, didn't want to do the work, had to clean the bathroom after about 20 men in order to use it myself, worked with a man who smoked cigars incessantly in an enclosed office (I eventually put a fan in his office window) - and there was a "no smoking" sign on the door, I didn't enjoy the town that much (though I didn't really try - no offense, Nashville), etc.

What job would you pay NOT to have?
A file clerk. I detest filing.

If you could be a fly on the wall, where?
If I were an actual fly, I'd probably want to be living in some nice pig pen somewhere. Otherwise, I'd want to be in the room when they decide who, besides me clearly, will be getting these teaching jobs. There is apparently something I need to learn.

Favorite Bible verse right now?
Almost always has been Psalm 23.

Guilty Pleasure?
Reality shows like Rock of Love and Flavor of Love

Got any confessions?
Are you kidding?!?

If you HAD to spend $1,000 on YOURSELF, how would you spend it?
I'd either buy a Blu-ray DVD player or maybe have $1k worth of liposuction done.

Favorite thing about your house?
It's mine, I feel safe and hidden in it, and it's in my hometown.

Least favorite thing about your house?
It's a trailer...I wish it were a house.

One thing you are bad at?
STAYING self-motivated

One thing you’re good at?
Singing

If you could change something about your circumstances, what?
I'd have a job, we'd be moved to a GREAT city but would live out in the sort-of-country (in a house!), and we'd be debt-free.

Who would you like to meet someday?
I wish I could have known my grandfather when I was an adult. I don't remember him, but there's just something about him in my mind... I'd like to meet someone who would make a fantastic president of the US.

What makes you feel sexy?
When I feel like I'm having a 'skinny day'.

Who is your real life hero?
I dunno...My husband probably sets the best example of overcoming incredible obstacles in life while still keeping his nose toward heaven, bettering himself, and moving forward. My Mom has accomplished so much in her life and set a great example as a professional woman. My father has set a great example of following your heart and doing exactly what you want to make your life better.

What is the hardest part of your job?
The times when there isn't much to do. I get bored.

When are you most relaxed?
In the evening after dinner when I'm lying on the couch, watching TV or a movie, and I'm thinking I should be heading to bed soon.

What stresses you out?
Talking about money with my husband or thinking about my dissertation project.

What can you not live without?
Okay, I'll go along with the air conditioning thing, too. Also, some kind of pet/animal interaction...I miss that a lot when it's not there.

Do you agree or disagree with the recent article that reported that blogs are authored by narcissists?
Well, since I've not read many of them, I can safely say that I don't think I've read any narcissistic blogs.

Why do you blog?
It's Christie's fault! I don't do it that often, but it's a good way to flush stuff out and look at it.

Atlantic City

I just got back from a trip to Atlantic City, NJ, with my Mom. I'd never been there before, and honestly, I enjoyed myself for the 3 days I was there. (Between you and me, I enjoy a little gambling but my goodness, AC is a dangerous place! It seemed like every time I walked near a slot machine, my money was mysteriously stolen from my purse! *cough*) Mom and I ended up at the Boardwalk for 2 of those days. It was a fun place, good for a day's worth of entertainment, and EXCELLENT for walk-ercising and/or keeping you out of the casinos. We took in Ripley's 'Believe it or Not' Museum, people-watched, waded in the Atlantic and collected shells, and enjoyed a funnel cake with the seagulls! They ate right from my hand! And I can also tell you where to buy tampons on the Boardwalk, should you be interested. (Ugh...it was only a 3 day vacation...why?!?) I'm also proud to report, even though I was quite nervous about this, we thankfully only ate one buffet the entire time we were there. So I maintained my girlish figure. (HA.) (I'll post a couple of goofy pictures soon.)

Monday, April 21, 2008

Ch-ch-ch-ch-changes

My life seems to change every day. And the older I get the less I like change. Being keenly aware of this potential for change, it's sometimes tough to just get out of bed in the morning - mostly because the first thing that will be changed is the litter box, and I'd prefer to avoid that for the most part.

Strangely enough, I'm in a holding pattern right now, waiting to turn the next corner...waiting for the next change...and anticipating change is just as difficult for me as dealing with it. I'm looking for a job at a university, and I'm supposed to be finishing my dissertation. (God willing, I'll be done by December graduation.) If I do get a job, I'll be moving. I reeeeaaaally don't like moving. I've done it so frequently, it seems...since 1987 I have lived in 11 different places. You'd think it would be 'old hat' by now. Don't get me wrong, I'm not one of those irresponsible types who just camp out somewhere as long as the owner lets them. I pay my rent and my bills on time. I don't leave a string of IOU's behind. I've always gotten my deposits back. I've never been evicted. The only call from a collection agency I've ever gotten was a mistake. I just moved frequently because of work or school. Anyway, I'm tired of moving and I want to be permanently planted. If I feel the need to see anymore of the country, or the world for that matter, I'll leave from and return to my home instead of being moved there. So, God willing, I'll land somewhere that will love me for the rest of my teaching career and into retirement.

There are a few changes I'm looking forward to, though...buying or building a house of my own, retiring, starting new hobbies, going to a church of my choice instead of being a paid choir section leader somewhere, getting involved in a community, being debt-free, having enough money to join the local Y, and maybe having a child of our own. We'll wait and see what God has planned. Until then, say prayers that I'll not bite my nails down to the nubs. (Maybe once I have that new job, I'll get my acrylic nails back. Yeah, that's another thing I'm looking forward to!)

Friday, February 22, 2008

Scattergories

It's harder than it looks! Use the 1st letter of your name to answer each of the following... They have to be real places, names, things... nothing made up! You CAN'T use your name for the boy/girl.

1. What is your name? Shelly

2. 4 letter word: Spit

3. Vehicle: Saab

4. City: San Francisco

5. Boy Name: Stan

6. Girl Name: Sara

7. Alcoholic drink: Sloe Gin Fizz

8. Occupation: Singer

9. Something you wear: Slip

10. Celebrity: Sean Connery

11. Food: Shrimp

12. Something found in a bathroom: Soap

13. Reason for Being Late: Stopped by the police

14. Cartoon Character: Snoopy

15. Something You Shout: Shut up!

16. Animal: Snake

17. Body part: Shin

18. Describe you: Special (interpret that however you like :) )

(Ooo...now I get to tag someone before they tag me for the first time...Christie, you're it! And of course anyone else who reads this, feel free to consider yourself 'tagged'.)

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Are You A Frugal Shopper Or A Big Spender?

I was tagged by Christie (again!) and asked to answer the following questions.

The directions given were: "How much did you spend on the following items the last time you purchased them and what brand(s) did you buy?" Here are my answers.

Lipstick
Dollar store brand (Everything's a Dollar) pink lip gloss $1.00

Shoes for Yourself
Black ballet flats with sequin bows and black heels, both from Payless $25.00 total

Bread
Wonder Light $2.73

Movie Ticket
Atonement matinee $6.75 <-- isn't this NUTS?!?!

Television
Sony 32" Trinitron AND an RCA 36" flat screen $55.00 total at the state auction

Take-Out Meal
Sushi and edamame at Wahada $15.00

Hairspray
Big Sexy Hairspray ~$10.00

Underwear for Yourself
Lane Bryant bras on sale, Buy 2 get 1 free, I think. But I paid with a gift certificate, so they were technically free to me...otherwise, they would've been around $50 total, I think. I pretty much only buy underwear with gift certificates from Lane Bryant.

Gift for Your Spouse
Either a pair of WalMart Levis for $4.50 or a Valentine's card for around $3.00...can't remember which came last

Bottled Water
Voss 'still' $2.99

Hotel Room
I can't remember the last time I stayed in a hotel room... :-\

Frozen Dinner
Smart Ones Creamy Rigatoni with Broccoli and Chicken $1.72

Clothing For Your Child
No kids, so I guess this would have to be the WalMart collars for the cats from goodness-knows-how-many years ago...no idea the price

Jeans for Yourself
Well, before the free ones I got as hand-me-down Gap jeans from another student, it would have to be the ones I found at America's Thrift Store for probably around $5.00

Kitchen Utensils
I haven't purchased a kitchen utensil in years, but I received a Hamilton Beach dispenser-type coffee maker a couple of Christmases ago...then again, we bought an off-brand microwave for the hubby to use on the road at the Salvation Army for about $15 I think.

Bubble Bath
I don't take baths, so no bubble bath. If I wanted to take a bubble bath, I'd just use shampoo.

OTC Medication
WalMart brand robitussin $5?

Shoes for Your Spouse
I don't buy shoes for my spouse unless he just doesn't have his debit card with him.

Haircut for Yourself
Regis $36.00 with tip

Scented Candle
Darsee & David's Butterscotch Sundae from Hobby Lobby on sale $5?

DVD
Catch Me If You Can from WalMart $5.50

Dry Cleaning
Lord...I think I was living in Bloomington, IN. It's been too long...can't remember.

Shampoo/Conditioner
Dove Moisturizing $4?, and Big Sexy Hair Big Volume Conditioner $7.25

Barbeque Sauce
Bullseye BBQ $4?

Book
I'm a public library girl, and I get them on CD. If music counts, I just ordered a used Elijah score for about $8.

(I think it's pretty clear that I'm a frugal person on most everything. How depressing.)

Yes, you guessed it. If you're reading this, tag, you're it!!

7 Strange Things About Me

I guess it's my turn again to be tagged. So, I'm going to completely copy the format of the tagger!

My friend Christie just tagged me on her blog Our Red Thread Journey!!! I am supposed to list 7 weird/strange things about me! I suppose the purpose of this exercise is to reveal wierd things about me that noone knows.

#1 - My favorite food is hot dogs. Not necessarily with the bun and the chili and mustard, etc., but more specifically, just the hot dog part. I'll eat them frozen, thawed, microwaved and/or boiled. I love 'em. I can eat a whole entire package in one sitting, but I choose not to do that anymore...the guilt just kills me!

#2 - I've never been to Europe. Being an opera singer and having never been to Europe is really an oddity. I'd love to go, and I have a savings account we refer to as my "Europe money," but with the euro the way it is, I may as well spend my money on something like plasma tv's.

#3 - I like to be as grammatically and 'punctually' correct as possible when I write emails or posts online. I like to capitalize the beginnings of my sentences, I like to insert apostrophes, and I don't use abbreviations like "c u soon" or "rotfl"...that drives me crazy. I'm actually a bit anal about it.

#4 - About 75% of the time, if I'm trying to choose a check-out lane at WalMart, I will choose the line that is about to have a problem...the cashier will need to do a price check or have to call her supervisor for an override, the customer doesn't have enough money and will need to return item by item, etc. I don't quite know why this is, but I'm learning how to immediately get a trashy magazine to read through BEFORE the problem arises. Oh, and changing lanes once a problem is evident doesn't always help...another problem will usually pop up in the new lane.

#5 - My biggest fear as a singer is thinking I'm going to forget my words. There have been times when I can't remember words and they come to me at literally the final last split seconds, times when, in a fit of frustration, I have inserted wrong words that still fit (even in foreign languages), and there have been times that I've had total blanks for a few measures. Nothing unsettles me on stage like forgetting my words.

#6 - I am an only child. Furthermore, I am the last of the Buchanan-named line. It all ends with me.

#7 - Other peoples' extraneous body hair in places other than on their body gives me the willies. Hair on the sink, in the tub, on chairs, on the carpet, etc., just gives me a weird feeling. And if I'm at a concert, and the person in front of me has a 'wild hair' on their clothing, I'm completely fixated on it almost the entire time and want very badly to remove it. If I can without being detected, I definitely will.

And again, since I don't really know anyone to tag, if you're reading this, you're it! :)

Friday, November 09, 2007

I Finally Feel Like a Scholastic "Adult"

Well, this LSU Tiger is one relieved kitty. Last Thursday was my final required student recital, this past Wednesday morning was my oral general exam (the last portion of my general exam...basically, the final exam of everything that I've studied in music up to this point), and last night I sang a beautiful Mahler piece, "Um Mitternacht", with the LSU Wind Ensemble. It was a lot to do within a week's time, but somehow I managed it, with God's help.

The interesting thing is that, upon waking this morning, I realized that I have no homework, no test to study for and no music to practice. It's strange...and WONDERFUL!!!

I am SO grateful for the success I've experienced in the past week, and I owe it all to the strength and endurance I've been blessed with lately. Normally, I would have much less hair (yes, my hair falls out when I'm super-stressed...it's quite lovely), but this time, God blessed me with all the above AND keeping my hair. :) Thank you, God, for EVERYTHING.

So, my plan for the upcoming weekend includes renting movies (which I will more than likely watch in my undies and a hair clippy - period), going out to eat (I will, of course, dress appropriately for this) and futzing around the house a lot, annoying my kitties. I predict it's going to be a truly spectacular weekend...I'm wondering if I can finagle that expensive seafood buffet out of the hubby....hmm... :)

I wish to extend a HUGE thanks to everyone who supported and encouraged me, and stood by my side during the past several years of school and the time when I was just trying to figure out what the heck to do with my life. To my dear husband who pushes me when I believe I have nothing left because he sees the best in me when I don't sometimes ... To my loving Mom who set the example of forward motion, no matter what ... To my protective Dad who loves and supports me and is always proud of my accomplishments ... To my best friend Christie who I know in my heart of hearts is always by my side and a phone call away ... To Jami and Rosella whose friendship and support through this "thing" they call a doctorate have been priceless ... To God who blesses me abundantly without reason! ... Thank you ALL.

Thursday, November 01, 2007

My Recital

Tonight is an important night. I'm giving my second doctoral recital at 6:00pm. I have my music memorized...pretty much. (Clarification...when my mind is engaged like it needs to be, I can get through my music without a problem.) I have my program notes ready to be copied, and I've bought gifts for everyone who needs one, with one exception...will do that this afternoon.

The problem now is that I'm incredibly anxious. (And I suggest you read the word "anxious" as deriving from the same root as "anxiety" and having little to do with the more commonly assumed definition that is closer to the word "eager.") My insides are in little knots, about every hour, I get this pang of fear that shoots through my body, I question whether or not I'm ready, I find myself waking up in the middle of the night frantically reciting the words to my music, etc.

There are things that may have attributed to this, I suppose. I waited til the last minute to memorize my music (though in between I was preparing for my general exams). I had my wreck back in January, so the next 6-8 months were vocally lost to pain meds and steroids. My teacher has started a new opera company and has enlisted my help, which took a good bit of my time. The new opera company's debut was last Saturday, so for the previous two weeks I had no voice lesson...not to mention that, since I usually have my lessons on Thursdays, I won't have one today either in favor of saving my voice for this evening. My accompanist's father passed away in the last month, so she was out prior to his passing, enjoying his company as much as she could...I don't fault her for that, mind you. I just wish I had more rehearsal time.

Anyway, again I ask for your prayers. At this point, I know there is little more I can do to get myself prepared for tonight, so I have decided to let go and give it all to God and let Him work it out for me. If I mess up, it's going to be okay. If I forget an word or an entrance, oh well. God willing, though, He will strengthen my mind and my body and give me the words and energy to give a glorious and entertaining performance. I look forward to hearing His miracles tonight, and I hope my audience does too!

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Sometimes Life Isn't Fair

About a week ago, someone relieved my husband of all his tools from inside his locked truck box. Among these were tools his father had used that were well over 30 years old. The building next door has security cameras, and the security contact informed us that their tapes indeed showed a small group of men taking his tools...at 9:30pm, just off a main road...they just pulled up and helped themselves. We're in the process of trying to acquire a copy of the tape.

If you've EVER been the victim of theft, especially with items of sentimental value, you know how it feels like someone has literally dug out your stomach with a rusty tablespoon. You frantically go through all the possible scenarios of what you should or could have done differently to prevent it, or what you can do now to get your possessions back or just get even with whoever targeted you. The sick feeling comes from just knowing in the back of your head that there isn't a darn thing you can do about it, though. It's quite a helpless feeling, and it's worsened when you don't know who your victimizer is. It's sad, too, when you find yourself suspicious of your neighbors, co-workers, etc.

So, prayers would be appreciated for my husband right now who is mourning the loss of items that are really precious to him, provide him with great enjoyment, and that, in a way, define a part of who he is. I think he needs it. (Be sure to include in your prayers that Lowe's, Sears and Harbor Freight have some GREAT upcoming sales! :) )

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

One more...

I got tagged again, plus I love these things, so here goes...
1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (first pet & current car) ...Neko Explorer
2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (favorite ice cream flavor, favorite cookie) ...Rocky Road Sugar Wafer
3. YOUR “FLY GIRL” NAME: (first initial of first name, first 3 letters of last name) ...S-Gar
4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal) ...Blue Cat
5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born) ...Lenn Hattiesburg
6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first) ...Gar-Sh
7. SUPERHERO NAME: (”The” + 2nd favorite color, favorite drink) ...The Yellow Chocolate Milk
8. NASCAR NAME: (the first names of your grandfathers) ...Hugh Lenard
9. STRIPPER NAME: ( the name of your favorite perfume/cologne/scent, favorite candy) ...Chanel Snickers
10.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother’s & father’s middle names) ...Lenn Duncan
11. TV WEATHER ANCHOR NAME: (Your 5th grade teacher’s last name, a major city that starts with the same letter) ...Presley Paris
12. SPY NAME: (your favorite season/holiday, flower) ...Fall Lantana
13. CARTOON NAME: (favorite fruit, article of clothing you’re wearing right now + “ie” or “y”) ...Cherry Flopsy
14. HIPPY NAME: (What you ate for breakfast, your favorite tree) ...Scooters Gingko
15. YOUR ROCKSTAR TOUR NAME: (”The” + Your fave hobby/craft, fave weather + “Tour”) ...The Jewelry Overcast Tour
Well, that was fun. Now, if you're reading this, it's your turn!

Friday, September 28, 2007

Samples

I think I can safely admit thatI am a sample slut. I am completely addicted to going to Walmart's homepage and checking out the samples they offer. I'm also one of those who, after seeing a commercial advertising a free sample, makes you mad because they are already preventing your connection to the website because they beat you there.

So, if anyone sees any commercials for free samples, feel free to leave me a comment with the link or phone number. (And for the record, I really dispise the free sample websites that make you fill out ENDLESS surveys and/or require that you "complete 37 of these offers to qualify for your stick of chewing gum". So if you have one of those, no, thank you! Keep it to yourself!)

I really do recommend Walmart.com's site, though. On the right-hand side of the page, click on "In Stores Now" and then "FREE Samples". Currently, they have samples of Goodnites for children, Huggies diapers, Sunsilk hair products and Folger's Gourmet Selections coffee!

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

ALREADY?!?

I just happened to see a man in a Santa suit on television the other night, and oh my goodness, am I ready for the holiday season to arrive! Since then, I've been sniffing for the coolness in the air (though in southern Louisiana, it ain't here yet!), craving spice cookies, soups, stews and chilis, humming Christmas music, wondering about what to get or make people for Christmas gifts, and wanting to redecorate in red and green! Aaahhh!! That was quick! The weather-people are predicting a cool snap near the end of this week, regardless of the fact that it will happen during the evening with lows in the 60's instead of 70's while the highs remain in the lower 90's during the day...bleh. But cool weather in any form, especially now, is incredibly welcome and will probably put me right over the edge. My prediction is that in the next week, I will have my first Christmas gift purchase. (This will be my usual first gift purchase of a special ornament for my best friend, Christie.) I hope and pray that this holiday season will be a great one because when I get "the bug" this early, I usually have high expectations when the time gets here. So, Merry Christmas, y'all!

Friday, September 07, 2007

Ahhhh....I need a drink.

Well, I made it through. I finished my paper on time, actually a day early, and my written exams are behind me. I will have my oral exams in the next month, I'm guessing. (You have to request a time at least 3 weeks prior to the date..had I known that before 2 days ago, I would have requested it 2 weeks ago.) Anyway, it's behind me. I did...okay. Parts were good, and other parts I wished I'd done better on. But then again, if I'd have done perfectly, there would be nothing to discuss in my orals. I've not gotten any proper feedback, so I don't know how I did "officially".

So, a couple of friends of mine and I will be celebrating this evening (I'm up too late to say 'tomorrow') by having a sleep-over/movie party. We plan to be, as we say, "d-runk"...to translate, that's just another way of saying really, really drunk. The three of us studied together, tested together and will be d-runk together by probably 6pm tomorrow evening. I've even made zero-point sweet & sour mixer. With tequila at 2pts a shot, we need to save all the points we can!..and we plan to use bunches of our week's flex points on alcohol!! (FYI...While it may sound like it, I'm not an alcoholic, this is a huge celebration, we're all of legal drinking age, and we won't be driving.)

Thanks for the prayers and well-wishes, and know that they are appreciated. Gee...now that the written exams are finished, I have some time to relax and clean the house...and cook for hubby...and do his laundry...and run errands...and grocery shop......HELP! :)

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Tick, Tock, Tick, Tock...

This is probably more a request for prayers than a plain ol' blog entry. I am in the process of studying for my doctoral comprehensive general exams. They are next week, 9/4-6...4th is foreign language diction testing, 5th is song and operatic literature, and the 6th day is for my minor area of linguistics. I have pretty much all of the information I'm going to compile stuffed into one big fat notebook, and from time to time, I'll actually look at it and study.

The remainder of my time is being spent on a paper that is to be written in lieu of a linguistics exam on the third day. It needs to be submitted by/on Saturday, 9/1...though my professor would probably be more appreciative if it found its way to him on Friday instead.

So here's the "issue" for me...So far, the minor area linguistics paper has come out of my head...very little research (though there has been some, and those few sources will be cited, of
course) other than checking my textbooks/notes/etc. to verify correct terms, to spur example ideas, etc. He's given me a lot of wiggle room, but as a result I'm feeling quite tentative and not sure what I'm supposed to do if I have few outside sources and research other than my textbooks and notes, especially considering this is supposed to be representative of doctoral level work. So, I'm a little bit afraid right now that my general knowledge on paper won't be adequate, and my professor (though he's really a nice man and wouldn't purposefully require additional work just for his own amusement) will require some down and dirty research to substantiate my knowledge that will need to be done in the last few days that I am hoping to use for concentrated preparation for the other exams.

Anyway, please say little prayers for my paper, for my studies, and for my exams. I'm going to need them at this point. Thank you SO much...and God bless you!!

Friday, August 17, 2007

Doing My Part for the Blog-Go-Round

“Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings,
these are a few of my favorite things”


(Funny, but my first non-paid "professional" musical experience

was a result of auditioning with the song "My Favorite Things". :)
I was the only child in the adults' chorus of HCLO's Brigadoon.)

Sound - my cats purring or my husband laughing
Late night snack - anything mushy/carby like StoveTop stuffing or pudding
Smell - something baked with cinnamon
Color combination - red and black
Nut - pine nuts
Time of the year - early spring or late fall
Author - don't have one
Books - Memoirs of a Geisha, To Kill a Mockingbird, Harry Potter's
Vegetable - Cauliflower
Male Actor - Anthony Hopkins
Flower - the palest pink roses
Vacation spot - what does "vacation" mean?
Pizza - thin crust anything from Pizza Hut
Sport to play - racquetball
Subject in school - anything besides history
TV channel - any channel currently playing CSI: Las Vegas
Radio station - anything playing soft rock or classic rock
Holiday - Christmas
Perfume - Chanel No.5
Shoes - lately, my Crocs, but I definitely prefer my feet bare
Candy - chocolate caramel turtles
City to shop - New York City
Female actress - Sandra Bullock, Julia Roberts
Beauty products - mostly Mary Kay
Item to shop for - beads & findings to make jewelry

Friday, August 10, 2007

Nothing Changes If Nothing Changes

I have recently adopted the practice of counting Weight Watchers points. I'm doing pretty well, I think. After following the plan for about a month, I'm down 12 pounds. I believe in my heart and head that this is a plan I can stick with. This is a "good thing", Martha.

As a part of my grand plan, I have added the counter to the top of my blog to post my progress. As you can see, I have quite a ways to go. (It's amazing how the pounds can find you when you're not looking for them...sleeping must cause weight gain.) I guess posting my progress is falling under the 'accountability' category.

Surely you've heard the same story as mine...I was big all my life, yo-yo'd for years, and gained more weight each time. I was tired of having trouble moving, tired of settling for whatever fit instead of something really cute, tired of skipping social events in favor of watching TV, and tired of being tired all the time. I knew that something had to change, and I knew I'd better do it soon before I was confronted with some major health issue that required a change. (At present, I am SO grateful to be able to say that I have no malady for which medication is necessary.) The catalyst for my change was probably a combination of feeling icky and depressed and seeing recent pictures of myself next to thinner people...I just had no idea I was THAT big...my mind thought my body was smaller than it actually is....soon to be "was".

This is not a commercial for Weight Watchers. I believe that if something works for you, then it works, and no one single plan is for everyone. For me, though, I love the fact that I can eat whatever I want within certain parameters. (And I'm ever thankful for Slim-A-Bear's!) I'm finding, however, that instead of gorging myself on the usual junk til my points are gone, I'm making better choices...eating healthier options, getting 4-5 servings of fruits/veggies in a day - something I NEVER did before, drinking my water, staying within my points, moving more, not using my activity points most days, and choosing wisely how I'm going to use my flex points, if I use them at all. This is not the old me anymore. There's this, well, it's almost a fear of eating poorly again. The best part is that I can see myself thinner and healthier down the road, and I feel my confidence creeping back in.

So, enough of this. I mainly just wanted to explain the counter. Please keep me in your prayers, though. I've been blessed with generally pretty good health so far, despite my weight, and I hope and pray it stays that way years from now because of the choices I'm making now.

Thursday, August 09, 2007

Knock, Knock...Who's There?

We had an interesting night last night. In fact, we've been having interesting nights randomly for the past few months.

Background...We have three cats, and apparently they are making "friends" we don't approve of. They like to fight each other through the windows, and this includes knocks and bangs from both sides of the window as well as lots of growling, hissing and screaming that, at 3:00a.m., frankly, scares the poot out of me when I'm in a dead sleep.

Well, last night, the visitor arrived while my husband was just about to go to sleep. (I was still up cleaning the kitchen if memory serves.) All of a sudden, I hear this loud thump and the sound of breaking glass! I quietly stick my head in the bedroom, hoping it's coming from another apartment, but no. I find my husband hanging halfway out of the bed looking towards the window.

You see, it's been our practice to slap or knock on the window to scare the visiting cat away, but this time the window had had enough. Yep, my husband broke the window. This precipitated a big clean-up and window-taping session, and God only knows how long it took my husband to fall back asleep.

Thankfully, we were able to find someone to replace the glass today, but truthfully, a part of me would've loved to see the look on that stray cat's face when it jumped up on the layers of sticky-side-out packing tape that were there last night, and its paws were momentarily frozen in that "time to get frisked for doing something bad" pose.

Oh no! I'm "it"!

It seems that I've been 'tagged' and must answer the following "questions" with one word. This is my first list like this on my blog (Thanks Christie....) so here I go. (Don't panic. I won't be tagging anyone in return. :) )

Yourself: Content
Your partner: Stoic
Your hair: Plain
Your mother: Amazing
Your father: Cuddly
Your favorite item: Ring
Your dream last night: Absent
Your favorite drink: Margarita (I'm assuming alcoholic here...)
Your dream car: Fuel-efficient
Dream home: Built
The room you are in: Den
Your fear: Abandonment
What you are great at: Singing
Where you want to be in 10 years: Chez-moi
Who you hung out with last night: WalMart
You're not: Scratching
One of your wish list items: Diploma
The last thing you did: Read
You are wearing: Undies
Your favorite weather: Precipitous
Your favorite book: Memoirs...
Last thing you ate: Cake
Your life: Blessed
Your mood: Semi-frantic
Your best friend: Harvey
What are you thinking about right now: Saturday
Your car: Explorer
What are you doing at the moment: Proofreading
Relationship status: Married
What is on your t.v: Infomercial
When is the last time you laughed: Tonight

Thursday, June 21, 2007

When will it end...


I was in an auto accident on 1/26/07. I was rear-ended while stopped on the interstate, causing me to hit the person in front of me. The person hitting me didn't see that traffic had stopped, so she was going quite fast. I have injuries that I'm still getting treated for and will expect to received treatment for, for the remainder of my adult life. Today, several months later, I discovered that my medical bills haven't been paid. The problem was that, somewhere in my pea brain, I thought that the insurance of the person who hit me was going to pay for it, and I had all my bills sent to their insurance claims department. Wrong. My med-pay was supposed to do the paying. So, God willing, as of today, all that has been fixed. Thank goodness for patient payees.

I'm not sure why insurance has to be so dang complicated, though. I mean, if you throw a baseball through a neighbor's window, your parents pay for it...if you knock over a glass vase, you replace it...you know how it works - "you break it, you buy it." Why doesn't insurance work that way? No, with insurance, you have to pay for it yourself, THEN go through the hassle of requesting a reimbursement. I suppose this gives them room to argue charges and validity of it all. And in my case, they are going to want to argue why they should pay when a woman was going at highway speeds while the traffic in front of her was STOPPED. Erg. God, grant me the serenity...